When my children were still babies, I had an experience I don't think I could ever forget. A family from my church had lost a child. I couldn't imagine the feelings the parents had & I hoped I would never have too. Since we were pretty close to our friends, and their children, my husband & I went to the little 2yr olds funeral. I wanted to show our friends we were there to support them. I wanted to be strong for them but inside I felt like there is no way I would be able to go through this. Seeing his little body in that pretty little box, he looked like a porcelain doll. As beautiful as he was made me cry even more. He looked so at peace as though he were only sleeping. I hugged my friend trying to hold myself together since she seemed to be doing better than me. When it was over my husband & I got in the car to leave I lost it completely. I kept thinking what if that was my child. Since the little boy had drowned & I already had a huge fear of the water & my children being around it my fear only got worse. Some how over the years of growing closer to God & going through our own experiences, I have learned to trust God & listen to my gut. I have finally came to a place where I can feel content and relax a little bit. All of my children can swim and I still am cautious about the safety of my kids though. It breaks my heart every time I hear of a child abuse case. I can not comprehend how in the world a parent could do the things they do sometimes. I want to remind you that we only have a time with them just like everyone else their life will end someday & you will not be able to get them back. My friends who lost their little boy were wonderful parents and continues to be wonderful parents to their other children. Remember we are told to train up our children in the way they should go & when they are old they will not turn from it Proverbs 22:6. What ever way you treat your child now will affect the way they are as adults. I just read a book called
"A child called it" By Dave Pelzer.
To pick up this book and read it, it just reaffirmed the fact that I want to adopt. I want more children. I have always wanted a large family. My husband & I have a heart for child & our heart has been pulled to the area of foster care in America. There are so many children out there that need a loving home. How their parents could abuse or neglect them is beyond me but I am going to continue in the direction to adopt. No matter how many children you have remember to love them, hug them, encourage them, teach them. I am not saying I am a perfect parent or that I haven't ever made any mistakes. I know I have & I have learned from them. So I guess what my point is..... Your child is a gift please treat them with kindness & respect. I have 3 gifts in the shape of children & I would take any others he would place with me.
Your child loves you & looks up to you!